Sunday, March 14, 2010
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2:12 AM
Seriously, I don't feel good. I don't know what goes wrong, I don't know why everything doesn't seemed to be right. There's too much conflicts, political issues. Is the title that important? Why should everyone go so hard up for it. Why can't everyone just work happily? People had warned me about all these, perhaps I'm too immature to think about it, just want to persue my dreams.
Everything happens for a reason, but what is the reason behind it. People are so fake, everyone is wearing a mask. I don't now whom to trust, who not to trust. There's always a saying, colleagues will always be colleagues, colleagues will never be friends. A line which is so obvious but I chose to step over it. Too fake, way too fake. Who is the hypocrite here and who is the backstabber. Disappointed is the word. I feel like giving all up, breakdown have a good cry and leave. But that shouldn't be the way cause never cry infront of your enemy, staying strong is a wiser choice.
It's tiring to put on a mask to work everyday, I don't mind being a clown to make people happy, but I don't feel good when I meet hypocrite.
I just need time to get over it, perhaps it's the first time for me to step out of my comfort zone that's why I reacted that way. I'll soon be okay.
